October Superlatives

20181006_130459October will forever be a month in which I grit my teeth to get through the memories of loss, but this one had some real dumpster fire days. Stress monsters appeared from multiple directions resulting in the appearance of physical hives for a few weeks that I’m still trying to relieve. Years ago, a dermatologist told me that skin often exhibits the first signs of stress, be it physical or emotional, and mine is loudly rebelling.

The worst: my husband and I are completely burnt out by coaching speech. It happens, we’ve run the team more than ten years and the last two were quite successful, but our mental fatigue has coincided with the beginning of a long season. Emotions run high for the competitors but mine feel especially lethargic and listless concerning the outcome and day-to-day effort. I’m attempting to turn this around, as it will only make the work harder as the stakes increase for practices and tournaments. However, it is an intense time-consuming activity which I’m sadly not looking forward to for the next three months. 

Cars breaking down, family obligations and disputes, and other stressors reared up too. I felt stuck and didn’t accomplish much of my October goal list. Even the trees, usually so brilliant in the Midwest, seem muted this fall. It’s as if a paintbrush dipped in watered-down brown was washed over the landscape. I’m hoping our extra rainy weather clears soon so that crisp fall air can be enjoyed before winter rolls in.20180915_133720October wasn’t all stress and gloom, I appreciated a few good things even more for the boost they provided from the heaviness.

The best: our twelve-year old Boston Terrier, Johnny Funtime, survived his third surgery and is recovering well. We were extra concerned this time for the higher risk due to his age and raised liver values. The vet was able to remove his growing tumor and he came out seeming as spritely as before. Huge relief for us, who put off the surgery as long as possible for fear he wouldn’t recover.

Taking my annual girlfriends’ trip to visit another friend in Columbus; partaking in lots of silly photo sessions, excellent antiquing, beautiful park visits and a little day drinking. Finishing the first book in The Lord of the Rings trilogy (I’m a late fantasy bloomer). Be forewarned, LOTR may be my newest obsession as I loved, lived and breathed it.

I will speak positive whispers into November in the hopes of bringing a positive end to the year. This piece I just read on autumn by Thoreau, titled Autumnal Tints, available from walden.org  is a testament to the season that I hope to carry with me. It illuminates the richness found in nature:

“October is the month for painted leaves. Their rich
glow now flashes round the world. As fruits and leaves
and the day itself acquire a bright tint just before they
fall, so the year near its setting. October is its sunset
sky; November the later twilight.” 



4 thoughts on “October Superlatives

    1. LOL! I hear ya, for the bats too. Seriously though, in your medical opinion, what remedy should I seek for these hives? I shouldn’t be this stressed out.


  1. I am sorry October was rough. Hoping your passion for speech comes back but if not perhaps it was just the season for it and now that season has passed. I was burnt out on teaching ag and FFA so I know how that goes.

    I am SO HAPPY you are loving LotR!!!!! I have so many friends who disliked The Hobbit and LotR that it bummed me out I didn’t have anyone to gush about over it. It is such an epic tale. The love, brotherhood, friendships and bravery all make my heart warm. ❤


  2. Aw, I’m sorry October was so hard on you. And I’m sorrier that you’ve got things in your future that you’re not looking forward to. October (and now November) kind of kicked my ass. Absent our trip, which came with its own occasional issues, I’ve also felt lethargic, aimless, kind of drifting. Our renos hit a wall of realization – the realization that we were in over our heads, and would do better to put this out to some professionals. So it was a one step forward, five steps back kind of situation, which is never not a bummer. I’m inclined to agree with Julie’s comment – maybe this part of your life is drawing to its natural conclusion. If it wasn’t, well, it would be business as pleasant, fulfilling usual. But if you’re not deriving those positives from it any more, perhaps it’s time to take a step back when it’s possible to do so. I’ve absolutely destroyed things I previously loved very much by just not knowing when to let go; I’d hate to see that with your love of speech and drama.

    Pleased as punch that Johnny made it through his surgery well; that’s always a terrifying proposition for a senior animal. Hope he’s feeling spunkier a few weeks on now, he’s such a cute little devil. 🙂


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